Pourquoi j'aime les Vaporistes.

The question was posed to me why I have chosen to Steampunk my life, and how it will effect my parenting style. I like this question because it made me think and pushed me to search out the resources I have been meaning to search since Phoenix was born.

 First, why Steampunk?
  I have been into Victorian fashion since I was really young, as I have mentioned before. I am also a Sci-fi geek, the two meld and make Steampunk. I also LOVE Jules Verne and his futuristic view of France and the world. I've always leaned toward a Goth look, but I knew I wasn't GOTH. So it was to my utter school-girlish delight when I discovered the wide world of Steam. (Les Vaporistes is the French equivalent)

 Second, why NOW?
   Because my parents wouldn't allow me to identify with any "group" that weren't JW's or "biblical." Nothing more, nothing less. I was already planning a full wardrobe re-do, simplifying and only buying a few Bohemian basics. My clothes are old, and the ones that aren't just don't fit me as a person, as the majority of them were bought while I lived at home. (With the exception of being, almost in it's entirety, made up of black. burgundy, ballet pink, and creme, my favored clothing colors.) SO, I plan on spending about $200 on an everyday wardrobe in addition to the few items I want to keep, and than save for my sewing machine and start my business rolling. I will be doing seamstress work, and continuing to make jewelry, as well as start to make various velvet and lace accessories I have had in my mind's eye for a few years. I also have other resources to cut down on the expenses of making a Victorian and Steampunk wardrobe.

 Thirdly, regarding being a Steampunk parent.
    It's not really that hard. In general I will continue dressing very bohemian, with the addition of corsets. It's just an extension of myself. I am going to make a Steampunk carrier, try to buy a Perambulator, and raise my son how I have planned to all along, free to be himself. And if I am not free to be MYSELF, what kind of example am I setting? Dressing in a Victorian/ Steampunk way actually makes me feel right. I feel terribly out of place in jeans, always have. I also want my son to be happy, so if he doesn't like Steampunk, that's OK, I am sure there will be something else he likes just as much. My biggest issue as a parent is that I watched my mother deny herself, betray herself, so often "because she was a parent" or "because she was a JW." It was a terrible example, and to see how unhappy she, and my grandmother, are, it breaks my heart. There was no reason my mom couldn't continue dressing AWESOME because she had us, there was no reason her or my Grandma had to give up music. My Mom SHOULD have been in a band, she SHOULD have been in stage productions, and people SHOULD have had the privilege to hear the AMAZING voice I grew up hearing. I don't want my children to look at my life while I was raising them and say "Poor Mom," I want them to say, "LOOK AT MY MOM!" and to be proud of my accomplishments, my determination to be ME. Sometimes I think I might put too much on my plate, but than I remember who I am, I hate being stagnant there is a reason why I am studying both Art History AND Dance, I never want to stop learning, so I chose two areas that you will always have something to learn.

Métamorphose en Bohème Victorien

 One of the subjects of this blog is my metamorphosis into a bohemian Victorian and Steampunk young lady. I've loved all things Victorian since I was quite small. I'm sure I come by it naturally, my Grandma's house is decorated in Victorian brick-back. I started designing dresses when I was 12 with the idea of bringing the old beauty to the ladies of today.Of course at the time I had no knowledge of Steampunk or the Neo-Victorian Community. I was raised in a sheltered community, and identifying with any "Style" was frowned upon. When I got older I started to discover Goth and Steampunk and realized I was drawn to these things. I love the color scheme of black, burgundy, and cream. I love Earth tones. And I really, really love corsets.

 Now I need to completely revamp my wardrobe, and it's my chance to transform into the style I've always wanted to be identified with.

 My first transformation is really the most simple, my hair, body, and beauty regiment. I already have long hair, to below my shoulder blades. I am growing my bangs out, though I might cut some wispy Gibson girl bangs. I have been washing my hair with Castille Soap for somewhere around 8 months, purely because I like the way my hair looks when I use it. Unfortunately it was getting greasy a little fast, but I was fortunate to find a great blog post on period hair soap and I am now trying just basic Ivory soap. I still am using Castille on my body. I have always worn very little make-up, just a little eyeliner, mascara, blush, and lipstick, with a touch of powder. SO, I already wear period make-up as well. ;)

 My next transformation will be to retrain my waist for corsets. I have already found the corset I want to use and the system of how long during the day and such. I would like to fit into my pre-pregnancy corset by my wedding in April.

   Votre Vraiment,
        Bird Lalena

C'est la vie

Happiness runs in a circular motion.
That is my motto. Even though life can bring you down at times it can't keep you down, happiness will always come back to you.
C'est la vie.
Votre vraiment,
  Bird Lalena

Qui a dit que vous ne pouvez pas choisir votre famille

Family has always been important to me and I was devastated when I lost mine. 

  That being said I think it is important to examine the way we view family in general. What is family? Well the dictionary definition states that a family must be related by blood or marriage. But why? Why in the wonderful progressive world we live in must it be that way? 

  When I first moved out and my parents still were talking to me, out of necessity, it hadn't quite hit yet what I was losing. And then it hit like a brick wall. Months with no response. And when I did get a response, brief and curt. I haven't heard my parents' voices in over a year. They've never acknowledge their grandson, and act like he does't exist. It hurts me badly. I never intended to lose my family to gain myself. Yet that's how it is in "their" world. Live a life that is not of their choosing, and pay dearly for it.
  During my pregnancy and postpartum I have struggled with the reality of being shunned by one's family. But I do not want to feel sorrow forever. I want to appreciate that I have gained a beautiful partner in all I do. Not just a husband and father to my son, but a best friend, and a family. I have my best friend, the kind of friend I never had before. She doesn't think badly of me, she sees me for me. I have friends that are there when I really need them. Just this afternoon I had coffee with a friend from my past, how great it felt to talk with him and enjoy our time, it felt like I had a brother again. 
  So, yes I don't have a family in the traditional sense of the word. But I do have family and I chose them to be there. 
 Merci mon amis, 
   Votre Vraiment, 
     Bird Lalena

Bonjour, mon amies.

I have decided to transfer my blog here to blogspot rather than tumblr. I like the format better. That being said, on y v. 

 

 This week has been rather busy. I caught a cold after staying up with Phoenix all night Monday, so I have been busily catching up on schoolwork and sleep. School is turning out great. I'm not a fan of my writing class, my teacher is assigning uninteresting subjects. >.< My french class on the other hand is absolutely wonderful. I am picking up more and more, and would love more chances to practice. Math sucks, but when does it not. :P

 

 The goals of this, my new blog, are much the same as my last, it will be a sounding board for my ideas. I will discuss everything! Fashion, the arts, politics, anything that pops into my mind. ;) Also I will share with you my transformation into a steampunker. LOL. In the course of the next six months I would like to simplify my wardrobe, and build an elaborate collection of steampunk and Victorian costumes. Another venture will be starting my own Origami Owl design business. Links to come!  

 

 Bienvenue, et j'adore vous. 

 

  Vorte vraiment, 

   Bird